welcome to my world

not much to say after all

so here are some pictures of our baby. she is beautiful and she does NOT have a pig nose. although the nose she does have is rather large. but the doctor said everything looks good so that is a big relief. my only intructions are to quit losing weight. seriously, for once in my life i'm not trying! i even ate two mcdonalds biscuit bacon things, hashbrowns, and pancakes before my appointment. it didn't work! she is two pounds and two ounces, which is funny because that is about how much Pancakes weighs! so now we are just waiting...it seems like september is going to take forever to get here, but really it's only 90 days until our due date! i'm sure time will fly by. sorry about the quality of the pictures, once again it's a picture of a picture.

this one makes me sad because she looks like she is crying. poor baby.

i can't believe the 3d ultrasounds! they clarity always amazes me. no more squinting at traditional ultrasounds! lol anyway, chris thinks she looks like me.....what do all you people think? i think she looks a little like Pancakes which is good because Pancakes is adorable. ethier way she didn't get that schnoz from my side! thank you mr. york. just kidding she is gorgeous and we are so blessed to be able to monitor her progress so closely. we literally have pictures from week 6 every two weeks until now. how lucky is that? so now here's a picture of what she looks like from the OUTSIDE!

maybe i should invest in maternity clothes? lol

this was at mariah's shower. people think we're sisters.

our baby is beautiful!

so it's not the best picture because i took a picture of a picture with my camera but it does the job. isn't she beautiful?!?!?! believe me, i'm keeping an eye out for that pig nose. :) the doctor said that everything looks GREAT! all my fluids are good and there are NO HEMORRHAGES! yay! little esther is now one pound, four ounces. so she is just a little itty baby. what a relief after the past few weeks we've had! so we go back to peoria on the 17th of june. the next couple days are going to be little stressful though. we are between insurances for TWO DAYS. can you believe it? two days. so i have to wait to get my shots. i'm a little nervous, but it makes me feel better knowing that she is healthy.

we had lunch with our pastor yesterday. love love love him. he is probably the nicest guy in the whole world. if anyone is looking for a great church, cornerstone christian fellowship www.cornerstoneqca.com is it. it was nice to catch up one on one with him. at bible study on wednesday night, we were discussing mark 8 and how jesus healed the blind man. whenever he spit on him and then he touched him, and the man could see a little but jesus touched him again and his sight was completely healed. so at bible study we were talking about different reasons people think jesus touched him twice and different theorys on why that's the only place in the bible where he did that. well yesterday at lunch, i told jerry my theory on why i think jesus did that. i said that i think jesus gets a kick out of doing things like that (healing us, helping us, blessing us) and it kinda reminds me how on christmas when you open your presents but then someone hides the really good present and busts it out at the end and its way more fun! i think jesus sometimes has fun with us. then mr smartypants york says "well actually, i think jesus was bringing him to a new level of faith...blah blah blah, im so smart." and jerry said yeah i tend to agree with chris. thanks a lot jerko. i still think im right, my answer makes me feel nice on the inside. we were also talking about how the word beg in the bible in two spots actually means lamentations or mourning. jerry was trying to explain that yesterday and i think i understand it because there are times when i feel like i beg God for things or for circumstances. but whenever we were going through all of our losses, it seemed like even though i knew what was going to happen, i felt like i begged God for our babies. it was a different kind of beg though. more like a mourning, or lamentation. so i can see why that term would be used when stephen got stoned and when sad things happen. sometimes we beg God because we are so helpless to do anything else. hmmm this blog is long...are you hapy ira?

well, i need to go eat! have a wonderful day!

ok seriously about those leggings...

i'm telling you, they look adorable in the mirror. i guess the nurse today was right when she said not everyone can look like the girls in the magazines. i think she was calling me ugly in a nice way.

so we went to to doctor today... i had a huge list of questions for my midwife. i was very impressed since she doesn't deal with mthfr. she answered most of my questions, and the answers she didn't know she looked up and called me when the office closed. so now we are just waiting to hear back from peoria about my shots because apparently this..

...isn't normal. super disgusting, i hate my stomach. but luckily i dont have any stretch marks lol. it's really frustrating because every time i have a problem with my shots i have to stop taking them for a day or two, but the doctors also say the shots are the only thing keeping me prego. PLUS she put me on three more supplements that i was apparently supposed to be on the whole time, but my perinatologist never prescribed! AND a new prenatal which will help me process folates better since my body is not doing a very good job of it. ugh. more pills. so for a midwife, i think rita is doing pretty good. i guess we find out if i have to go back to peoria sooner than scheduled or if i need another ultrasound first thing tomorrow morning. i don't really see the good in going on and off so many medications all the time. it's annoying because every perinatologist i see says something different because apparently there is very limited info about mthfr. i dont know. im annoyed.

bizarre

sooo....of all weird things that could have happened to me today, because weird stalks me, at church tonight my high school secretary was there. (all the faculty from my old high school go to my church, kinda fun. except it's not so fun to see the principal....i'm still scared of HIM. remember mr. olmstead?) she always asks how i am like four times a week, and she asked me today what is exactly wrong with me. weeeelllll, i told her what i have and she was like 'you're kidding me! i have mthfr, too' no freaking way! out of one in a bazillion people, i know someone personally with the same blood disorder. bizarre, right? she said she had to go all the way to mayo clinic to be diagnosed because no one around here will deal with mthfr (which i knew that but i didn't realize you had to go THAT far). i thought it was a crazy coincidence.

so rev. helms had some wise words today : "if the shoe fits, take it off." i thought that was kinda cool. he was talking about how people say 'thats just the way i am' and instead of saying that we need to be replacing the way WE are for the way God is. so i guess the first STEP (haha) is taking off the ME shoe and putting on the GOD shoe. i sounded kinda smart right there.

can you believe chris and i went yard saleing for nine hours yesterday. bedrest, shmedrest. my doctor is going to kill me. BUT we got a lot of really cute clothes and a lot of really neat things! does anyone know why people try to sell baby clothes with puke stains on them? i was sicked out. excuse me folks, i would like my baby to stain her own clothes, thank you very much. she doesn't need your babies help :)

okay, well i am tired and my dogs are lonely. adios!

for amy....

and anyone else who wants to see my gorgeous niece!

did you ever get to see these pics? the photographer took them at the wedding. the top one is my favorite! she's so funny :)

two tickets to the gun show

dang!


i think i'm dying. this pregnancy thing sucks. i never stop puking, my head hurts all the time, and my backaches keep me up all night long. according to my OB- she is very happy because that usually means everything is going well. hmmmm....going well for whom?

also.... if i am 24 weeks, isn't that six months? but september is still 31/2 months away. that does not equal nine months. how many months am i really gonna be pregnant for? i'm seriously confused.